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[02 Sep 2006|02:25am] [ mood | envious ] [ music | wicked ] Why do boys suck? you think your over them and your not thinking about them but sumhow they always seem to do something so cute and then they got you hook. or so i've been told. trying not to like sum1 is the hardest thing to do. telling yourself that you dont like them is even harder. but yeah even every no and then you get those feelings and look at them and just smile and think damn what was i think and then their are those days were its like ohh man hes amazingly adorable but no matter what you can never forget the person that makes you smile just at the sound of his voice or the mention of his name. Ohh well I hate when people are like we need to get you a man. No i dont NEED a guy. I would like one but No1 needs a guy to make them feel happy. I have best/friends that i can feel happy with just by doing nothin in general. I can not believe i'm going to be a senior. All the years of high school and imagining being a senior is finally here. soo much to look forward to. Disney Senior Show- Little Shop Of Horror. Getting My senior licesnes Last year of cape cod graduation Project Graduation And ohh soo much more. I love all you guys. soo much my friends are the shinzit and no one can ever say anything different. "We except that you will talk shit but keep talking bitches because what you say out of your mouths will only make us more infamous." ohh yeah i got a job 2day!. im soo proud of myself. not gunna lie. Get pumped guys were going Erping this weekend and its going to be hilarious! I miss you captains. ohh boy. <3 [1] Are you Blonde?

this thing is soo long [19 Jul 2006|05:05pm] (Click here to post your own answers for this meme.) ✓ I miss somebody right now. × I don't watch much TV these days. × I own lots of books. × I wear glasses or contact lenses.  (only for driving at night.) × I love to play video games.  (only old school ones.) × I've tried marijuana. × I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. ✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (key word usually.) ✓ I curse sometimes. ✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. ( it goes on... ) Are you Blonde?

rant and raving lunatic [19 Jul 2006|04:29pm] why do you have to go and make things so complicated. really lame. k thanks. um im not saying anything but i deff think your the one who needs to wake up from dream world and not think that everybody is talking about you behind your back. Be Loyal to your friends and be aware of your enimies b/c no matter what there will be ppl hating you and not liking you. so get used to it. im sorry dear but not everything can be perfect. "your life is so confusing. so hard right now. I dont know who i can trust anymore," same lame excuse same lame you. u trust everyone and their mom so dont say anything. life goes one obv u do too. just live learn and be free to speak your mind. just be careful who you open your mouth too b/c not everything is trusted anymore. ugh ppl. soo annoying. but yet we live with them. cant live without them. soo random. ~live learn and be free. [1] Are you Blonde?

[26 Jun 2006|03:05am] [ mood | melancholy ] I've learned a couple of things the past few months. someone always has to get hurt doesnt it suck to have it work out that way. yeah weither it may be unintentional or intentional it shouldnt happen. Whore. yeah Im a dumb ass and im kicking myself in the butt but yeah thats besdies the point b/c im going to be over it later anyway. K i dont like you I've just learned y i hate drama. honestly fucking unnecesary. But yeah recaping few months b/c i cant remember where i left off on this so yeah. Umm bye bye birdie was well amazing. Got an amazing surprise gosh i <3 him. then um cape cod. No words to describe in one short entry it was that unforgetable. then senior prom. Fun stuff I love getting dressed up not gunna lie it was a fun night but i would deff do it differently next time cant wait till ours. Um yeah then finals/ regents i passed everything wat wat. niice pretty f'in sweet. but yeah then graduation. I didnt cry i was so proud of myself. YAY! but yeah im going to miss you guys and be safe but have fun in college. yeah then grad parties. they are alot of fun. B/w sitting outside getting wet in the rain, hacking sack, being dd yeah fun stuff. okay yeah so im not going to get over the fact that it was completly unnecassary and that it didnt need to start b/c well yeah. End of story ranting raving blah blah and all that jazz. Umm I love little rascals and i hate getting close with ppl and used to them being around i hope for the better that things turn out to be okay. Gosh this was a long night. open up your eyes and look around you. You never know what is around until its staring you in the face. Be blunt and frank. Overcome the obstacles and take the inital step. Easier said then done. Right? ~Debbie Are you Blonde?

"I cant help falling in love with you!" [07 May 2006|04:19pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | dont knw the song ] wow not gunna lie these past few weeks hve been somewat of an amazing time. getting close to ppl. gaining new friends and a shit load of good times. Junior Prom was well amazing. not gunna lie i loved getting dressed up and feeling all pretty and getting alot of different complients it was so cute. my favorite reaction was kars and kait, i love you guys for making me feel so undescribalbe actually, Im conceded i know it. so yeah the night was just topped off with a fun time at the firehouse and an okay time at dangerfields. I love going to softball games not gunna lie fun times with all of us cheering. Sat on saturday actually werent that bad. i hope i did good. yeah last nights game pr v north and we won 4-1 it was a pretty sick game and we froze our asses off but hey it was worth it. so yeah just a little update and all that stuff. "so heres a toast, a toast to all the new adventures we will encounter and to make the best out of every situation that is thrown at us." Are you Blonde?

"I write in Livejournal. So I must be EMO" [16 Apr 2006|09:12pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | Emo Kid..(I think) ] So what can i say now. I;m not to sure what i can think anymore. I'm so confused. The one person who knows what im thinking is the one that we are supposed to be fake towards. No i dont think so. I think i cant do that i have to be real with myself b/c im picking up on things that other ppl aren't. We're loosing you, and i know it doesnt seem like it but hey i know were chop liver. You were using us for payback. well i guess u werent but ehh idk. just dont change too much, u already have soo yeah idk wat to think anymore. Well the crazy things in life seem to come at the best moments. U think u know wat ur doing and u know the person really well but it turns out that u can only trust urself with information. Try to tell ppl as little as possible. Hoping tht u can trust a person doesnt mean its going to stay in the group. So yeah trusting little to nobody now a days does not feel right b/c Im used to trusting everyone. but hey life goes on and soo yeah the past is in the past and drama will always be there so U just say Fuck it and go right along with w/e situation comes up. Another Day A Different Sittuation! [2] Are you Blonde?

soo i know where my friends stand [06 Apr 2006|10:35pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | all american rejects- the last song ] "True Colors" You with the sad eyes Don't be discouraged Oh I realize It's hard to take courage In a world full of people You can lose sight of it all And the darkness, inside you Can make you feel so small But I see your true colors Shining through I see your true colors And that's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colors True colors are beautiful, Like a rainbow Show me a smile then, Don't be unhappy, can't remember When I last saw you laughing If this world makes you crazy And you've taken all you can bear You call me up Because you know I'll be there And I'll see your true colors Shining through I see your true colors And that's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colors True colors are beautiful, Like a rainbow So sad eyes Discouraged now Realize When this world makes you crazy And you've taken all you can bear You call me up Because you know I'll be there And I'll see your true colors Shining through I see your true colors And that's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colors True colors, true colors Cos there's a shining through I see your true colors And that's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colors, true colors True colors are beautiful. I'm sorry that i have been neglecting you. it seems like we havnt talked in ages. actually its been like 4 mnths apperently. well im sry i owe u 23234 days to make up for everything. But i still love you and its not going to change. I know where my friends stand and who i can trust. and i know that one of them is you and i hope that it will not change. (ARTSPBMLMTHG) Are you Blonde?

[04 Apr 2006|10:34pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | dnt kno the song ] You Are 64% Happy You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up. How Happy Are You? I know my true friends and thats all that counts. honestly i can trust limited amount of ppl and its sad. You guys know who u are, thanks for putting up with my bitchyness and bad days. ill be here for u guys wenever u need some1 ....I'll be your crying shoulder... Are you Blonde?

I'm too Emo for my shirt. To Emo for my shirt. [12 Mar 2006|12:39am] [ music | you and me -lifehouse ] ELPHABA I'm limited: Just look at me - I'm limited And just look at you - You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda So now it's up to you (spoken) For both of us (sung) Now it's up to you: GLINDA I've heard it said That people come into our lives for a reason Bringing something we must learn And we are led To those who help us most to grow If we let them And we help them in return Well, I don't know if I believe that's true But I know I'm who I am today Because I knew you: Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been changed for good ELPHABA It well may be That we will never meet again In this lifetime So let me say before we part So much of me Is made of what I learned from you You'll be with me Like a handprint on my heart And now whatever way our stories end I know you have re-written mine By being my friend: Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea Like a seed dropped by a skybird In a distant wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you: GLINDA Because I knew you: BOTHI have been changed for good ELPHABA And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness For the things I've done you blame me for GLINDA But then, I guess we know There's blame to share BOTH And none of it seems to matter anymore GLINDA ELPHABA Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown From orbit as it Off it's mooring Passes a sun, like By a wind off the A stream that meets Sea, like a seed A boulder, half-way Dropped by a Through the wood Bird in the wood BOTH Who can say if I've been changed for the better? I do believe I have been changed for the better? GLINDA And because I knew you: ELPHABA Because I knew you: BOTH Because I knew you: I have been changed for good. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ yeah fun fun night. guess where the farmies went. ill give u a hint. so im going on a picnic and i brining Hamburgers im going on a picnic and i brining Olives im going on a picnic and i brining Oranges im going on a picnic and i brining Towels im going on a picnic and i brining Eggs im going on a picnic and i brining Roasters im going on a picnic and i brining Scooters yup thats right hooters and ikea both my first time. and yeah thats all i can say except everything happens in the back seat for a reason... "Backseat Windows up Thats the way WE like to DUCK!" Are you Blonde?

I once was born to be bad [01 Mar 2006|06:59pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | I'll cover you ] I <3  Farm Animals soo yeah its been a fun fun weekend.  Friday chilled with Reyns, Kari, Becky, I believe fatties needed to eat so it was first off to CeC for some yummy pizza and some fun games, and free prizes, we met up with chris and i can not keep a straight face, then Reyns, Kari n i went to the bowling alley met up with becky n siley watched becky bowl, tiff came, then it was kari, reyns, me n Kristen off to the nanuet mall to meet up with tiffy. then off to pick up becky n get us some money. then off to meet up with chris stopped to get some yummy ice cream then kari dropped off seom forms for the hope thing. then we went to go get tino a stinkin power bar out of 2342342 choices..lol...then off to get more food bc fatties were hungry again. chicken fingers and fries at the diner deff set it right. soo yeah then we were off to the bowling alley didnt bowl then off to drive around then got tired and came home. Saturday Reyns n i made brownies for Karis n Chris's 2 year..yay for them. then we got panera bread and we watched dirty dancing and played with an excerise ball. it was a fun night. the ride home singing the wheels on the bus(lol tino) sunday was chilling day / dinner at aunts house..mmm good food. monday school got really sick and was out tues and 2day i cant wait to get back to school to see the farm animals and i can wait for this weekend.  <333  [2] Are you Blonde?

Soo much to Say [23 Feb 2006|08:31pm] [ mood | hot ] [ music | Working soundtrack ] soo yeah last week wasnt so great. many things happened. tuesday was valentines day and i got flowers and handed out chocolates. and i ate reyns valentines gift. Wednday we said goodt bye to our beloved ex vice prinicpal Mr. G. RIP...it was a very sad day. so the rest off the week went down hill from there..were not going to talk about it. friday just chillaxed. saturday-chillaxed went to see date movie with kerrie and lexie then went to chill with tino chris and kari..after that went to chill with those three minus one and add two more. so yeah it was a fun night. sunday-chilled with becky went shopping. then chilled with other half because she Came Home! yes woot!...and then went to friendlys to chill with the farm animals.. Monday- chillaxed then went to the mall and saw when a stranger calls and then chillaxed at the mall and all that stuff with Kari Chris Becky and Tino...yay it was a fun Night...Let Me Tell You and Thats what he/she said and ohh so much more..and iicing/ice rink apperently their the same thing. biddile and ohh so much more convos Tuesday clean my room. wed- nothing thursday/today- went to school/ marine/ and now im at stac waiting for kari to get out to get out of class its fun chillin with UUAA and ROAR. <333 [2] Are you Blonde?

[11 Feb 2006|12:23pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | Crash- Gwen Stephanie ] idk alots been going on latly. so much things on my mind. school, v-day, d-day, and many other things. ohh boy so yeah boys basketball game last night, the farm house was there cheering them on well half of the farm + two more. Crazy pics were taken the boys were on fire and the crowd was hot, literally hot. balancing on those bleachers are not fun lost my balance several times it wasnt fun. then had some assholes in front of us who bascially thought they were cool but in total they really werent. and if ur going to make fun of some ppl i'd advice u to not look right at them and be like laughing in their face pretty f'in rude. so yeah said good bye to reyns and then went home and was wired i couldnt fall asleep. so i didnt fall asleep till like 2/3. so yeah preparing for some major snow storm apperently yeah fun stuff. lata [2] Are you Blonde?

i have the most amazing friends [30 Jan 2006|08:58pm] [ mood | flirty ] [ music | cascada-everytime we touch ] midterms went really well i think. monday school, tues math, wend Us and English 3 essays in a day ohh boy. and thursday day off went to see mr price. that was fun little kids were just like uhh r u in high school yeah fun stuff even got introulbe by the principle that was kinda weird. then friday marine. I walked into that test with the attitude of fuck you if i get a c- im happy with it. not to mention i had a nightmare that i showed late took the test and got it back with a -9.4 not even a 0 but a -9.4 idk how i did it but that was one of the freakiest dreams i have ever had. yeah well then i went to panera bread with sara n cat, then we went to kids corner to see the kids, and then i went to then b-ball game with becky girls n boys won, n then i went to sleep over tinos house. and it was loads of fun. sat i came home from tinos went to the mall wth katie and victoria had a venting day then went to sileys house for a party. it was fun coming out of the night with a lesson on "soda pong", *quack ribbit roar woof moo n Oink*, really bad sinigng to cascada and ohh so much more. sunday i basically slept all day. not feeling so chill and 2day i stayed home and slept some more [3] Are you Blonde?

[25 Jan 2006|09:25pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | catch your wave ] soo amazing. this feeling that you feel when ur on top of the world and your so happy that you just want to scream and shout at the top of your lungs. yeah its a good feeling. haha so fun weekend. friday didnt start off so good. drama ugh i was a little potty mouth. but it went better reyns and i went to the nanuet mall, almost caused an accident b.c sum guy was staring at us and yeah it wasnt pretty. but yeah i was like uhh hello the light turned and then he took off. so at the mall randomly looking for things, had a digusting pretzel and lemonade and then went to acmoore, and then kohls. sat..went to walmart, then costcos, then shoprite, blockbuster, ddr tourtament to cheer on my love melissa and my crazy friend rob. they did awesome no matter wat anyone says! then it was becky's parta. first ones on the dance floor woot how bout then apples. yeah danced all night. was insane in the membrane and did all types of funky dance moves. it was an amazing night and ohh soo much fun. test this week. ugh math, us and english down. marine to go. ohh gosh save me now i deff think im screwd no im positive that im screwd. yeah okay so yeah anywayz so much drama so little time..lol yay i have a day off 2morrow. woot ~End Are you Blonde?

mucho bored [14 Jan 2006|10:21pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | rent-light my candle ] so its been a interesting week. i think. last sat was the dance. mucho fun. sunday/monday/tuesday chilled/school/drama/interesting wednsday went to the reality check meeting thursday school/marine cant really tell u wat we did excpt that we watched a video on elephant seals and that they r really horny. haha friday school/finish marine study sheets/just chilled today=AMAZING haha. went to acmoore got shirts made shirts for boys game/then went to chilis ordered like 23234234 amount of food/ ate only two things out of it/then went to the boys game took a bus we won 52-48 against nanuet. then we went to chilis again and then went to reyns house. then whole day was crazy were fools but thats wat makes us amazing. haha yeah im that cool. :D [2] Are you Blonde?

im awake n bored..ehh [06 Jan 2006|10:12pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | dad snoring in the background ] new years eve- it was snowing in the rain/hail/snow with reyns in the park for a bit just chillin b/c we both wanted to get out of our houses, then we went to lexies chilled got clean and went to the blue moon resturant. it was family night there with a clown and balloons and all that fun stuff. the clown came over to our table and was like so who wants balloon things. and we were like sure y the hell not so then she turns to reyns and was like wat do u want and reyns wasnt looking at her and the clown was like listen kid im just a mom in a clown suit get over it, that was the rudest/funniest thing i've heard. then after eating we went into the a&p played football with toilet paper got introuble danced randomly throughout the isles and saw a hot guy winded up spendind and hour or so in the store and spending more then we should have but it was worth it. then we just chilled at lexies, at 4345345lbs of food, watched the ball drop, called ppl got hung up on by some ppl, and then went to sleep new years day- went to my aunts had food, chilled with family, and had b-day cake early -monday- my 17th b-day woot. went to see the radio city christmas show, it was ehh kinda corny but good, then went out to eat with my family tuesday-snow day thank god. i wanted it but i didnt ehh it was an easy realzxing day so it was chill. wend school thursday school/marine today friday-school, chilled after school, reyns house/ tz vrs PR. PR WINS 70-53 WOOOT!. ohh yeah fun game. Are you Blonde?

humming the tune [28 Dec 2005|10:14pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Everytime We Touch - Cascada ] Everytime We Touch - Cascada I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me. I still feel your touch in my dreams. Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why. Without you it's hard to survive. Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling. And every time we kiss I swear I could fly. Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last. Need you by my side. Cause every time we touch, I feel the static. And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky. Can't you hear my heart beat slow. I can't let you go. Want you in my life. Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky. They wipe away tears that I cry. The good and the bad times, we've been through them all. You make me rise when I fall. Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling. And every time we kiss I swear I could fly. Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last. Need you by my side. Cause evertime we touch I feel the static. And evertime we kiss i reach for the sky. Can't you hear my heart beat slow I can't let you go Want you in my life Cause everytime we touch I get this feeling. And evertime we kiss i swear i can fly. Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last Need you by my side Are you Blonde?

i havnt talked to him in a long time :'( [26 Dec 2005|11:01pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | rent ] merry late christmas. it was fun i had a lot of fun. went over my aunts house. got clothes, a scarf, cds, dvds, money, gift certificates, and a bunch of misc stuff. well hope everybodys christmas was fun. and later days Are you Blonde?

leeeeeeeeeeeeet there beeeeeeeeeee peeeaceeeeeeeeee onnnnnnnnnnn eeeeeeaaaaarrrrrrtttttthhhhhhhhhh?? [20 Dec 2005|09:58pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | voices in my head. lol jk ] winter concert 2night. yeah. wat now. it kinda sucked. i screwd up so bad and started laughing in the middle of let there be peace on earth but i think no1 noticed so its sall good...hopefully. ohh well other than that ppl were obnoxious. i seriously hate certian ppl esp fugly ones. yeah sry just thinking bout them..ohh well moving on. 2morrow is wedn that means we only have 2 more days after that. seriously hoping it goes b soo fast. ohh well i think im done. im wide awake kinda and im bored. so yeah lets see how long it takes me to fall asleep. Are you Blonde?

[12 Dec 2005|09:13pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | grandma got run over by a reindeer ] Christmas Cookies are the Shizzzz!   okay so im in my happy place. and i always have my safety net to fall back on. lol Are you Blonde?

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