Everybody's a little different

xa_lost_soulx @ 2006-09-02T02:25:00

2006-09-02T06:34:18Z

Why do boys suck?

you think your over them and your not thinking about them but sumhow they always seem to do something so cute and then they got you hook.

or so i've been told.

trying not to like sum1 is the hardest thing to do. telling yourself that you dont like them is even harder. but yeah even every no and then you get those feelings and look at them and just smile and think damn what was i think and then their are those days were its like ohh man hes amazingly adorable but no matter what you can never forget the person that makes you smile just at the sound of his voice or the mention of his name. Ohh well I hate when people are like we need to get you a man. No i dont NEED a guy. I would like one but No1 needs a guy to make them feel happy. I have best/friends that i can feel happy with just by doing nothin in general.

I can not believe i'm going to be a senior. All the years of high school and imagining being a senior is finally here. soo much to look forward to.
Disney
Senior Show- Little Shop Of Horror.
Getting My senior licesnes
Last year of cape cod
graduation
Project Graduation
And ohh soo much more.

I love all you guys. soo much my friends are the shinzit and no one can ever say anything different.
"We except that you will talk shit but keep talking bitches because what you say out of your mouths will only make us more infamous."

ohh yeah i got a job 2day!. im soo proud of myself. not gunna lie.

Get pumped guys were going Erping this weekend and its going to be hilarious!

I miss you captains. ohh boy.
<3

this thing is soo long

2006-07-19T21:03:46Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days.	× I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses. (only for driving at night.)	× I love to play video games. (only old school ones.)	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (key word usually.)
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (i always have secrets.)	× I hate the rain. (Deff NOT I <3 it)
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	✓ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	✓ I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair. (but i really want to cut it.)	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (nails only and a wig on halloween)	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look. (sometimes)	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (not always. but it seems like i always am.)	✓ I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	× I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone. (deff like not love.)	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex. (depending on who it is.)	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (alcohol not drugs)	✓ I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (by accident. im not like that. i dont reaize i flirt with ppl)
× I own the "South Park" movie.	✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. (once or twice. b/c i didnt feel like doing them)	✓ I enjoy some country music. (keyword SOME)
× I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am. (but i think a democrat. not sure.)	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now. (i could change things. but so far im comfy.)	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
✓ I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people. (usually the ones that dont like me. obv.)	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse. (ridden not owned)	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
✓ I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. (not by choice. i was forced)	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone. (i need to be with friends.)	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole. (inside joke not serious)	✓ I'm a HUGE drama-queen. (once again inside joke.)
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	× I can speak more than one language. (haha i wish)	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be. (i wish too)
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	✓ I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	✓ The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	✓ I dislike milk.	✓ I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
✓ I enjoy burritos.	✓ I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	✓ Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself.	✓ I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
× I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	✓ I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	✓ I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

rant and raving lunatic

2006-07-19T20:32:36Z

why do you have to go and make things so complicated. really lame. k thanks. um im not saying anything but i deff think your the one who needs to wake up from dream world and not think that everybody is talking about you behind your back. Be Loyal to your friends and be aware of your enimies b/c no matter what there will be ppl hating you and not liking you. so get used to it. im sorry dear but not everything can be perfect. "your life is so confusing. so hard right now. I dont know who i can trust anymore," same lame excuse same lame you. u trust everyone and their mom so dont say anything. life goes one obv u do too. just live learn and be free to speak your mind. just be careful who you open your mouth too b/c not everything is trusted anymore. ugh ppl. soo annoying. but yet we live with them. cant live without them. soo random.

~live learn and be free.

xa_lost_soulx @ 2006-06-26T03:05:00

2006-06-26T07:16:16Z

I've learned a couple of things the past few months. someone always has to get hurt doesnt it suck to have it work out that way. yeah weither it may be unintentional or intentional it shouldnt happen. Whore. yeah Im a dumb ass and im kicking myself in the butt but yeah thats besdies the point b/c im going to be over it later anyway. K i dont like you I've just learned y i hate drama. honestly fucking unnecesary. But yeah recaping few months b/c i cant remember where i left off on this so yeah. Umm bye bye birdie was well amazing. Got an amazing surprise gosh i <3 him. then um cape cod. No words to describe in one short entry it was that unforgetable. then senior prom. Fun stuff I love getting dressed up not gunna lie it was a fun night but i would deff do it differently next time cant wait till ours. Um yeah then finals/ regents i passed everything wat wat. niice pretty f'in sweet. but yeah then graduation. I didnt cry i was so proud of myself. YAY! but yeah im going to miss you guys and be safe but have fun in college. yeah then grad parties. they are alot of fun. B/w sitting outside getting wet in the rain, hacking sack, being dd yeah fun stuff. okay yeah so im not going to get over the fact that it was completly unnecassary and that it didnt need to start b/c well yeah. End of story ranting raving blah blah and all that jazz. Umm I love little rascals and i hate getting close with ppl and used to them being around i hope for the better that things turn out to be okay. Gosh this was a long night.

open up your eyes and look around you. You never know what is around until its staring you in the face. Be blunt and frank. Overcome the obstacles and take the inital step. Easier said then done. Right?

~Debbie

"I cant help falling in love with you!"

2006-05-07T20:18:46Z

wow not gunna lie these past few weeks hve been somewat of an amazing time. getting close to ppl. gaining new friends and a shit load of good times. Junior Prom was well amazing. not gunna lie i loved getting dressed up and feeling all pretty and getting alot of different complients it was so cute. my favorite reaction was kars and kait, i love you guys for making me feel so undescribalbe actually, Im conceded i know it. so yeah the night was just topped off with a fun time at the firehouse and an okay time at dangerfields. I love going to softball games not gunna lie fun times with all of us cheering. Sat on saturday actually werent that bad. i hope i did good. yeah last nights game pr v north and we won 4-1 it was a pretty sick game and we froze our asses off but hey it was worth it. so yeah just a little update and all that stuff.

"so heres a toast, a toast to all the new adventures we will encounter and to make the best out of every situation that is thrown at us."

"I write in Livejournal. So I must be EMO"

2006-04-17T01:20:25Z

So what can i say now. I;m not to sure what i can think anymore. I'm so confused. The one person who knows what im thinking is the one that we are supposed to be fake towards. No i dont think so. I think i cant do that i have to be real with myself b/c im picking up on things that other ppl aren't. We're loosing you, and i know it doesnt seem like it but hey i know were chop liver. You were using us for payback. well i guess u werent but ehh idk. just dont change too much, u already have soo yeah idk wat to think anymore. Well the crazy things in life seem to come at the best moments. U think u know wat ur doing and u know the person really well but it turns out that u can only trust urself with information. Try to tell ppl as little as possible. Hoping tht u can trust a person doesnt mean its going to stay in the group. So yeah trusting little to nobody now a days does not feel right b/c Im used to trusting everyone. but hey life goes on and soo yeah the past is in the past and drama will always be there so U just say Fuck it and go right along with w/e situation comes up.

Another Day A Different Sittuation!

soo i know where my friends stand

2006-04-07T02:31:16Z

"True Colors"

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness, inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

So sad eyes
Discouraged now
Realize

When this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors, true colors

Cos there's a shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors, true colors
True colors are beautiful.

I'm sorry that i have been neglecting you. it seems like we havnt talked in ages. actually its been like 4 mnths apperently. well im sry i owe u 23234 days to make up for everything. But i still love you and its not going to change. I know where my friends stand and who i can trust. and i know that one of them is you and i hope that it will not change. (ARTSPBMLMTHG)

xa_lost_soulx @ 2006-04-04T22:34:00

2006-04-05T02:28:14Z

You Are 64% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world.
Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

I know my true friends and thats all that counts.
honestly i can trust limited amount of ppl and its sad.
You guys know who u are, thanks for putting up with my bitchyness and bad days. ill be here for u guys wenever u need some1
....I'll be your crying shoulder...

I'm too Emo for my shirt. To Emo for my shirt.

2006-03-12T05:39:37Z

ELPHABA
I'm limited:
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you -
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
(spoken) For both of us
(sung) Now it's up to you:

GLINDA
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

ELPHABA
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:

GLINDA
Because I knew you:

BOTHI have been changed for good

ELPHABA
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

GLINDA
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

BOTH
And none of it seems to matter anymore

GLINDA ELPHABA
Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown
From orbit as it Off it's mooring
Passes a sun, like By a wind off the
A stream that meets Sea, like a seed
A boulder, half-way Dropped by a
Through the wood Bird in the wood

BOTH
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?

GLINDA
And because I knew you:
ELPHABA
Because I knew you:

BOTH
Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

yeah fun fun night. guess where the farmies went. ill give u a hint.
so im going on a picnic and i brining Hamburgers
im going on a picnic and i brining Olives
im going on a picnic and i brining Oranges
im going on a picnic and i brining Towels
im going on a picnic and i brining Eggs
im going on a picnic and i brining Roasters
im going on a picnic and i brining Scooters

yup thats right hooters and ikea both my first time.
and yeah thats all i can say except everything happens in the back seat for a reason...

"Backseat Windows up Thats the way WE like to DUCK!"

I once was born to be bad

2006-03-02T00:25:17Z

I <3 Farm Animals

soo yeah its been a fun fun weekend. Friday chilled with Reyns, Kari, Becky, I believe fatties needed to eat so it was first off to CeC for some yummy pizza and some fun games, and free prizes, we met up with chris and i can not keep a straight face, then Reyns, Kari n i went to the bowling alley met up with becky n siley watched becky bowl, tiff came, then it was kari, reyns, me n Kristen off to the nanuet mall to meet up with tiffy. then off to pick up becky n get us some money. then off to meet up with chris stopped to get some yummy ice cream then kari dropped off seom forms for the hope thing. then we went to go get tino a stinkin power bar out of 2342342 choices..lol...then off to get more food bc fatties were hungry again. chicken fingers and fries at the diner deff set it right. soo yeah then we were off to the bowling alley didnt bowl then off to drive around then got tired and came home.
Saturday Reyns n i made brownies for Karis n Chris's 2 year..yay for them. then we got panera bread and we watched dirty dancing and played with an excerise ball. it was a fun night. the ride home singing the wheels on the bus(lol tino)
sunday was chilling day / dinner at aunts house..mmm good food.
monday school got really sick and was out tues and 2day
i cant wait to get back to school to see the farm animals and i can wait for this weekend.
<333

Soo much to Say

2006-02-24T01:49:14Z

soo yeah last week wasnt so great. many things happened. tuesday was valentines day and i got flowers and handed out chocolates. and i ate reyns valentines gift. Wednday we said goodt bye to our beloved ex vice prinicpal Mr. G. RIP...it was a very sad day. so the rest off the week went down hill from there..were not going to talk about it.
friday just chillaxed.
saturday-chillaxed went to see date movie with kerrie and lexie then went to chill with tino chris and kari..after that went to chill with those three minus one and add two more. so yeah it was a fun night.
sunday-chilled with becky went shopping. then chilled with other half because she Came Home! yes woot!...and then went to friendlys to chill with the farm animals..
Monday- chillaxed then went to the mall and saw when a stranger calls and then chillaxed at the mall and all that stuff with Kari Chris Becky and Tino...yay it was a fun Night...Let Me Tell You and Thats what he/she said and ohh so much more..and iicing/ice rink apperently their the same thing. biddile and ohh so much more convos
Tuesday clean my room.
wed- nothing
thursday/today- went to school/ marine/ and now im at stac waiting for kari to get out to get out of class its fun chillin with UUAA and ROAR.

<333

xa_lost_soulx @ 2006-02-11T12:23:00

2006-02-11T17:23:23Z

idk alots been going on latly. so much things on my mind. school, v-day, d-day, and many other things. ohh boy so yeah boys basketball game last night, the farm house was there cheering them on well half of the farm + two more. Crazy pics were taken the boys were on fire and the crowd was hot, literally hot. balancing on those bleachers are not fun lost my balance several times it wasnt fun. then had some assholes in front of us who bascially thought they were cool but in total they really werent. and if ur going to make fun of some ppl i'd advice u to not look right at them and be like laughing in their face pretty f'in rude. so yeah said good bye to reyns and then went home and was wired i couldnt fall asleep. so i didnt fall asleep till like 2/3.

so yeah preparing for some major snow storm apperently yeah fun stuff. lata

i have the most amazing friends

2006-01-31T02:04:30Z

midterms went really well i think.
monday school, tues math, wend Us and English 3 essays in a day ohh boy. and thursday day off went to see mr price. that was fun little kids were just like uhh r u in high school yeah fun stuff even got introulbe by the principle that was kinda weird. then friday marine. I walked into that test with the attitude of fuck you if i get a c- im happy with it. not to mention i had a nightmare that i showed late took the test and got it back with a -9.4 not even a 0 but a -9.4 idk how i did it but that was one of the freakiest dreams i have ever had. yeah well then i went to panera bread with sara n cat, then we went to kids corner to see the kids, and then i went to then b-ball game with becky girls n boys won, n then i went to sleep over tinos house. and it was loads of fun.
sat i came home from tinos went to the mall wth katie and victoria had a venting day then went to sileys house for a party. it was fun coming out of the night with a lesson on "soda pong", *quack ribbit roar woof moo n Oink*, really bad sinigng to cascada and ohh so much more.
sunday i basically slept all day. not feeling so chill and 2day i stayed home and slept some more

xa_lost_soulx @ 2006-01-25T21:25:00

2006-01-26T02:22:19Z

soo amazing. this feeling that you feel when ur on top of the world and your so happy that you just want to scream and shout at the top of your lungs. yeah its a good feeling. haha

so fun weekend.
friday didnt start off so good. drama ugh i was a little potty mouth. but it went better reyns and i went to the nanuet mall, almost caused an accident b.c sum guy was staring at us and yeah it wasnt pretty. but yeah i was like uhh hello the light turned and then he took off. so at the mall randomly looking for things, had a digusting pretzel and lemonade and then went to acmoore, and then kohls.

sat..went to walmart, then costcos, then shoprite, blockbuster, ddr tourtament to cheer on my love melissa and my crazy friend rob. they did awesome no matter wat anyone says! then it was becky's parta. first ones on the dance floor woot how bout then apples. yeah danced all night. was insane in the membrane and did all types of funky dance moves. it was an amazing night and ohh soo much fun.

test this week. ugh math, us and english down. marine to go. ohh gosh save me now i deff think im screwd no im positive that im screwd. yeah okay so yeah anywayz so much drama so little time..lol

yay i have a day off 2morrow. woot
~End

mucho bored

2006-01-15T03:23:02Z

so its been a interesting week. i think.
last sat was the dance. mucho fun.
sunday/monday/tuesday chilled/school/drama/interesting
wednsday went to the reality check meeting
thursday school/marine cant really tell u wat we did excpt that we watched a video on elephant seals and that they r really horny. haha
friday school/finish marine study sheets/just chilled
today=AMAZING haha. went to acmoore got shirts made shirts for boys game/then went to chilis ordered like 23234234 amount of food/ ate only two things out of it/then went to the boys game took a bus we won 52-48 against nanuet. then we went to chilis again and then went to reyns house. then whole day was crazy were fools but thats wat makes us amazing.

haha yeah im that cool. :D

im awake n bored..ehh

2006-01-07T03:18:36Z

new years eve- it was snowing in the rain/hail/snow with reyns in the park for a bit just chillin b/c we both wanted to get out of our houses, then we went to lexies chilled got clean and went to the blue moon resturant. it was family night there with a clown and balloons and all that fun stuff. the clown came over to our table and was like so who wants balloon things. and we were like sure y the hell not so then she turns to reyns and was like wat do u want and reyns wasnt looking at her and the clown was like listen kid im just a mom in a clown suit get over it, that was the rudest/funniest thing i've heard. then after eating we went into the a&p played football with toilet paper got introuble danced randomly throughout the isles and saw a hot guy winded up spendind and hour or so in the store and spending more then we should have but it was worth it. then we just chilled at lexies, at 4345345lbs of food, watched the ball drop, called ppl got hung up on by some ppl, and then went to sleep

new years day- went to my aunts had food, chilled with family, and had b-day cake early

-monday- my 17th b-day woot. went to see the radio city christmas show, it was ehh kinda corny but good, then went out to eat with my family

tuesday-snow day thank god. i wanted it but i didnt ehh it was an easy realzxing day so it was chill.

wend school thursday school/marine today friday-school, chilled after school, reyns house/ tz vrs PR. PR WINS 70-53 WOOOT!. ohh yeah fun game.

humming the tune

2005-12-29T03:09:28Z

Everytime We Touch - Cascada

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling.
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
Cause every time we touch, I feel the static.
And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat slow.
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling.
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
Cause evertime we touch I feel the static.
And evertime we kiss i reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat slow I can't let you go
Want you in my life

Cause everytime we touch I get this feeling.
And evertime we kiss i swear i can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last
Need you by my side

i havnt talked to him in a long time :'(

2005-12-27T03:59:50Z

merry late christmas. it was fun i had a lot of fun. went over my aunts house. got clothes, a scarf, cds, dvds, money, gift certificates, and a bunch of misc stuff. well hope everybodys christmas was fun. and later days

leeeeeeeeeeeeet there beeeeeeeeeee peeeaceeeeeeeeee onnnnnnnnnnn eeeeeeaaaaarrrrrrtttttthhhhhhhhhh??

2005-12-21T02:59:52Z

winter concert 2night. yeah. wat now. it kinda sucked. i screwd up so bad and started laughing in the middle of let there be peace on earth but i think no1 noticed so its sall good...hopefully. ohh well other than that ppl were obnoxious. i seriously hate certian ppl esp fugly ones. yeah sry just thinking bout them..ohh well moving on. 2morrow is wedn that means we only have 2 more days after that. seriously hoping it goes b soo fast. ohh well i think im done. im wide awake kinda and im bored. so yeah lets see how long it takes me to fall asleep.

xa_lost_soulx @ 2005-12-12T21:13:00

2005-12-13T02:09:59Z

Christmas Cookies are the Shizzzz!

okay so im in my happy place. and i always have my safety net to fall back on. lol

xa_lost_soulx @ 2005-12-11T21:54:00

2005-12-12T03:02:00Z

snowday on friday was ridiculous. didnt need it. well i didnt think we did. so yeah it was a long boring day for me.

saturady opening night of fame. i was pumped. had my helper on curtian. so funny and adorable lol. drama went down as usual but w/e we pulled throw it haha. stayed outside and play celebrity with katie jeff and tor that was fun got pooned like 10 times. but yeah it was fun. end the night off the diner. good times. got my chicken fingers and fries and a milk shake and i was set. it was amahzing. went home to sleep.

today i went to cousins christening and it was so cute. i love him hes adorable. had a good time. im glad i went. and i had fun. and i was told the play went well so i was happy bout that too.

night

I will survive

2005-12-09T01:32:33Z

First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me

NO __NO__ __A__ 2morrow. please!

yum yum yumm

2005-12-05T02:50:30Z

hmmm fun fun im lovin the new u. its good. friday hp4. sat rent and chee burger. today marathon didnt run so smoothly. NEVER PISS OFF AN ITALIAN PERSON i swear that was the dumbest thing ever. ohh man this is going to be a fun year.

passing the time

2005-11-14T02:44:21Z

ABCs & 123s
* ABCs *
A is for age::	16
B is for bands::	no clue
C is for car::	toyota corolla
D is for dream date::	johnny depp
E is for exciting thing that happened to you::	getting to talk to my friend that i havnt talk to in ages
F is for favorite food::	itialin food
G is for greatest gift::	money
H is for happiest place to be::	swings
I is for indescribable moment::	watching the sunset on the beach
J is for jealous of::	ppl with money/smart ppl
K is for kool-aid flavor::	cherry
L is for love::	my friends
M is for most valuable thing you own::	my life
N is for name::	Debbie
O is for outift that's your favorite::	my pjs
P is for places you've traveled to::	pa
Q is for questionable habits::	being lazy
R is for religious beliefs::	i believe in god
S is for sports and hobbies::	crew marine science singing
T is for talents::	singing making ppl laugh
U is for unknown secret::	not telling
V is for videos and movies you watch regularly::	dirty dancing
W is for weather::	fall weather
X is for x-rays you've had::	on my finger and ankle
Y is for yesterday I....::	went to see prices play
Z is for zodiac sign::	capricorn
* NUMBERS *
Siblings you have::	1
States you've visited::	i think 5
Countries you've visited::	1
Piercings you have::	2
Tattoos you have::	0
Pets you have::	0
Cds you have::	idk
MP3s you have::	none
Largest number of days and/or hours you went without sleep::	not too sure
Largest number of days and/or hours you slept::	18hours
Concerts you've been to::	2
Books you've read::	not sure
Significant others you have had::	0
* DO YOU *
Believe in astrology?:	yeah
Believe in ghosts?:	ehh
Believe that homosexuality is a sin?:	no
Believe that the death penalty is right?:	idk
Believe that there's a purpose for everything that happens?:	kinda
Do you smoke?:	no
Drink a lot of water?:	yeah
Fear death?:	yeah
Fear the future?:	ehh
Hate a lot of people?:	i dont hate ppl i dislike them
Have a crush on a celebrity?:	yeah
Have a crush on someone you know?:	no
Have a favorite person?:	no
Have a fear of heights?:	no
Have many goals?:	yea
Like concerts?:	yea
Like fire?:	not really
Like long walks on the beach?:	yeah
Like politics?:	ehh
Like snow?:	yea
Like storms?:	yeah
Like to live spontaneously?:	not really no
Think crying is a weakness?:	yeah kinda but only wen its towards me not on other ppl
Think that love conquers all?:	no
Want to travel the world?:	yeah
Wish on stars?:	yeah
Wish that you could have something or someone you can't?:	yeah
* LAST *
Book you read?:	the great gatsby
CD you bought?:	no clue
Concert you went to?:	concert for katrina
Disappointment?:	my old crush
Drink you had?:	milkshake
Food you ate?:	chilli
Goal you achieved?:	cant remeber
Hair color you had?:	still blonde
Movie you saw?:	prime
Outfit you wore?:	jeans and a t-shirt
Person 's shoulder you cried on?:	becky's
Person that emailed you?:	myself
Person that made you laugh?:	reyns.
Person who sent you real mail?:	no clue
Person you hugged?:	kerrie
Person you saw?:	dad
Person you talked to online?:	becky
Place you visited?:	stac
Shoes worn?:	slip on shoes
Shower you had?:	this morning
Significant other you had?:	...
Song you heard?:	yellowcard-gifts and curses
Store you were in?:	dont remember
Thing you bought?:	pizza
Time you danced?:	sat night
Time you saw your best friend?:	2day and last night
Time you spent alone?:	2day
Time you went on a roller coaster?:	long time ago
Time you went to the mall?:	wed
Time you went to the movies?:	wed
TV show you saw?:	bewitched
You thought before you went to bed last night?:	thinking about things that went on throughout the night
* GETTING PERSONAL *
Height?:	5'1
Shoe size?:	8
Eye color?:	blue
Hair color?:	blonde
Hair length?:	long
Are you a righty or a lefty or ambidextrious?:	righty
Did you ever have an imaginary friend?:	i think so
Did you ever play 'doctor' when you were a kid?:	yeah
Do you believe in karma?:	yeah
Do you believe in reincarnation or life after death?:	no
Do you believe in revenge?:	ehh
Do you believe that there's one person out there for everyone?:	yeah
Do you dream in color?:	yeah
Do you have a lot of clothes?:	yeah
Do you have a signature style or saying?:	umm no
Do you have very vivid dreams?:	no
Do you hold a lot of grudges?:	kinda yeah
Do you know more than one language?:	no
Do you like fashion?:	yeah
Do you like to spend a lot of money?:	no
Do you think it's okay for a girl to ask a guy out?:	yeah
Do you think that there are double standards?:	no
Have you ever puked in class?:	no
Have you ever puked on someone else?:	no
How do you see yourself in 5 years?:	in college
How do you think others see you?:	no clue
How would you want to die?:	peacefully
If you could confront anyone from your past you hated, would you?:	yeah
If you had a chance to take a trip anywhere, where would you go?:	europe
If you won a shopping spree, what would you spend it on?:	cloathes a new car
What did you want to be when you were a child?:	teacher
What do you do when you feel like crap?:	sit in bed or talk to friends
What do you think is the sexiest thing about the opposite sex?:	personality/smile
What do you think is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:	bad Hygiene
What do you think people like most about you?:	i make them laugh??
What do you think the opposite sex thinks about you?:	im funny/nice person
What do you think will happen to your friends in the future?:	hopefully we'll all stay friends
What famous person are you most like?:	no clue i've heard the girl from brigdet jones
What instruments do you play?:	musical voice
What is the best thing that ever happened to you?:	going to high school meeting new friends
What is the most scandulous place you had sex in or made out in?:	...
What is the one album that people wouldn't suspect you owned?:	idk
What is the one thing that makes you cry?:	jelaousy
What is the one thing that makes you depressed?:	being alone
What is the one thing that reminds you of home?:	cooking
What is the one thing that you're ashamed that you like?:	backstreet boys..thats right i amdit it
What is the one thing you remember about your life before the age of 5?:	i used to go to preschool at kids corner
What is the stupidest movie you've ever seen?:	too many
What is the stupidest thing you've ever done?:	too many to tel
What is your dream car or vehicle?:	convertible/truck
What is your dream job?:	something that i make a lot of money in
What is your favorite cure for boredom?:	goin online
What is your favorite ice cream flavor?:	mint chocolate chip the green kind
What is your favorite place to go?:	the swings
What is your favorite way to relax?:	listening to music
What person would you like to meet?:	derek jeter/johnny depp
What was the best thing someone did for you?:	just been there for me
What was the first cd/album you bought?:	no clue
What was the worst thing someone did to you?:	made me cry
What was your favorite book as a kid?:	no clue
What was your favorite tv show when you were little?:	barney
What would you change about yourself?:	to not be lazy
What would you classify yourself as?:	indiviual
What would you do if you won the lottery?:	pay off all depts/get a house/ buy a car/and so much more
What would you like people to know about you?:	im so shy wen i want to be
What would you want to be remembered as?:	a good person who always made ppl laugh
What's your best asset?:	being here for ppl to talk to
What's your biggest flaw?:	being lazy
What's your biggest goal?:	get better grades
What's your dream?:	to pass with flying colors
What's your favorite class or subject?:	math
What's your favorite physical feature?:	my face
What's your favorite thing to do?:	be with friends just chilling
What's your naughtiest secret?:	no clue
Who do you think shouldn't be famous?:	dont know
Who is your favorite celebrity of all time?:	johnny depp
Who is your favorite person(s) of all time?:	my friends/ family
Would you bungee jump?:	hell yeah
Would you choose agony over death?:	yeah
Would you choose love over money?:	yeah
Would you ever dress up as the opposite sex?:	depending
Would you ever go on a reality show?:	no
Would you ever marry someone without any money?:	yeah if i was in love
Would you ever want to be famous?:	yeah
Would you ever want to change the past?:	yeah
Would you ever want to feel what it's like to be another person?:	yeah
Would you ever want to fly?:	yeah
Would you ever want to know what people were thinking?:	yeah
Would you ever want to rule the world?:	no
Would you ever want to skydive?:	no
Would you want to be immortal?:	no
Would you want to know everything about your future?:	no
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dumb deedum dedum

2005-11-13T04:35:33Z

bored. tired. feeling a little sick. mountian house. prices play. it was better then wat i expected. going to the wrong car. getting to his play with only like 2mins to spare maybe not even. mcedee's afterwards. chillin with ppl. random giggle fits. 2night was a good night.